Saturday, December 23, 2006

All I Want For Xmas









































I don't need a car
Nor do I want for gold
All I need, my honey
Is your hand to hold

I don't need fancy clothes
decorate my body
They would just be removed
When I need to change

I don't need presents
Underneath a big tree
All I need is my Honey
Right next to me

All I want for Christmas


My only true wish
Is to be wrapped up
In your love with a kiss

Sunday, December 03, 2006

T . I . E

Thanksgiving, Initiating and Expressing

They are the keys of creating romance sparkling in relationship. As mentioned before that I feel the romance is slightly dimmed. Praise God, He knew our needs and supplied it.
Sometimes, it's ashame for us. He is so good to us but we often do unpleasant things to Him.

Well, Thanksgiving is the first key. Giving thanks to God that our partner is a special gift from Him. He has a beautiful plan for us since we were in the womb.
How's amazing His work for us before we met. They shaped us differently in His special ways but we had a real connection between each other.
When we met, we could understand each other, accept each other's weaknesses and strengths, support each other in good and bad times and prayed for each others needs.

The second key is Initiating. Instead of complaining to the condition, starting with initiative to light up the romance fire in this relationship. Please don't wait who's doing first and use our ego as an excuse. That's not gonna be working. In relationship woman and man have the same opportunity to initiate. In the old age, our wiseman said that woman should wait for the man to initiate everything. Yes, it's partly true for certain cases. However, if this is for the benefit of the relationship itself. Gender is not an excuse.

The last one is Expressing. After we have a willingness to start, don't stop until there and wait and wait. Express your feeling, praise our partner, hug and touch our partner with love.
That will be a magic way. Love is an action. It's not just a fantasy or imagination. It needs an action so other can feel it and the love can be transfered.

Those keys I have found out from my experience. Now, the romance is sparkling again and I love him more and more and so do him. I feel like it's the first time we met and the love just abundantly surround us.
Thanks God...

Friday, December 01, 2006

" Desert Period "

Well, our relationship is more than 6 months now.
Sometimes, I have a doubt if this relationship really works for us.
Sometimes, I'm just afraid if the feeling and love are just faded away and become friendship instead of couple.
I know that I am not supposed to think in a negative way. However, that tought just suddenly strikes to my mind.

Hmm...I don't know whether I take for granted of what he has done for me or actually I expect more and I don't get it.
I just feel that the romance is slightly faded away. It's because we just take for granted each other everyday and we are too busy with our works therefore we feel that there's no use to express our feeling to each other anymore or other reasons. I do believe that we still love each other until now and yeahh, we still contact and meet each other at least three times a week.

Some people said to me that for new couple is a honey moon mode but after one year and subsequently it will be different.
Actually I don't want to believe that, I believe that if we do something to maintain it or even create the sparks again, the feeling will still be there. But of course, it needs effort from both side.
Well, perhaps it's kinda "desert" period for me.
I believe that even in the relationship with God, we will experience this "desert" period when we feel nothing, everything seems not exciting but God still always be there for us.

Hopefully, this is just my short term feeling only and everything will be back like before.
Our relationship is full with joy, love, romance.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Celebration of our 6th Months Anniversary



















Yesterday was our 6th Months Anniversary, and we celebrated it at Crazy Horse Paris.
We went to see the 8pm show and had fine dinning at Le Restaurant.
Beside celebrating our 6th Months, we also celebrated my new job and him for being promoted.

The show was beautiful for me with all the lighting and the food is perfectly done with the elegance ambience...
It's perfect night yesterday....

Thanks God for your blessing to us, and pls guide and bless this relationship to be a blessing for people surround us...
I love you...

Thursday, November 02, 2006

6th Month's Anniversary

Coming to our 6th month's anniversary next Friday.
I just want to give thanks to Him for what He has done in our relationship.
He protects and guides our relationship because He loves us very much. He doesn't want this relationship going to destruction.

Honestly, before and after Phuket trip, we have been done in our own way, we neglected what God says, therefore last week I had a doubt about this relationship.
A lot of questions in my mind...and doubt whether he truly loves me until I asked himself whether he still loves me and if I can't do anything for him, does he still love me and why he loves me?
He's surprised and the answers are the same like the first we are in the relationship.
He still loves me and no reason why he loves me...

The problem is not easily solved eventhough he has stated that...the problem is in me, until I knelt in God's altar and confessed our sins. Thanks to be God, He lifted me up and put new robe and said " I love you whatever you are eventhough nobody in this earth love you.
Go and love others as I love you, don't set any expectation to them since they can't fulfill your happiness, only I am. Please pray one another so you don't fall to temptation. I have forgiven you and go, no sin anymore. "

His love is really amazing, I can feel the difference before and after...
And I ask Holy Spirit to guide and teach us in this relationship how we can please Him.
The answer is very simple, we need to love God first above all, because He's the source of real love and without His love, it's impossible we can love person who is very different from us.
and then love him whatever he is without any expectation and be honest in everything.

Thanks God for Your amazing love to us.

Your girl, your woman,your friend (Jose Marichan)


When my work is through at the end of the day
there's nothing else that i'd rather do
than to be with you at the end of the day
to be right by your side makes me feel brand new
coz you're my girl, my woman, my friend
and that's how it's gonna be til the end
loving you is what i lived for
and i can't ask for anything more
you're my woman, my girl and my friend roled into one

You're my man and i'm at the prime of my life to you
I give myself, all my heart all of what i am at the prime of my life
I'll never let a thing come to break us apart
coz i'm your girl, your woman, your friend
and that's how it's gonna be till the end
loving you is what i lived for
and i can't ask for anything more
than to be your woman, your girl and your friend

Being with you, my love
makes my day complete

Holding you close, my love
creates a wondrous dream

no need to say the word
no fancy places for me

love is anywhere as long as you are there with me

We'll be free, our love will set us free
to be you and me
I'm your girl, your woman, your friend
and that's how it's gonna be til the end
loving you is what i lived for
and i cant ask for anything more
than to be your woman, your girl and your friend roled into one

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Our first trip at Phuket, 21 - 24 Oct




























































































































































Our first trip together at Phuket from 21 - 24 October 2006.
Many unforgettable moments during our trip. From crazy things until sickness which we have gone through together...
We rode the elephant together, jetski at Patong beach, sea kayaking at Phang Nga bay, snorkling & struggling at Phi Phi Island, and some funny things when the water in the hotel was not available and we needed to take a shower asap, then we took a shower at swimming pool.
Last but not least, on the last day, he got sick and vomited along the night...hehe...
Well, this is our first trip and we look forward our next trip to NZ.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

SUKA - SAYANG - CINTA

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang, kau ingin memilikinya untuk keegoisanmu sendiri·
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang, kau ingin sekali membuatnya bahagia dan bukan untuk dirimu sendiri·
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang, kau akan melakukan apapun untuk kebahagiaannya walaupun kau harus mengorbankan jiwamu·

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada disisinya maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aku menciummu?"·
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada disisinya maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aku memelukmu?"·
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang dan berada disisinya maka kau akan menggenggam erat tangannya...·

SUKA adalah saat ia menangis, kau akan berkata "Sudahlah, jangan menangis."·
SAYANG adalah saat ia menangis dan kau akan menangis bersamanya·
CINTA adalah saat ia menangis dan kau akan membiarkannya menangis dipundakmu sambil berkata, "Mari kita selesaikan masalah ini bersama-sama."·

SUKA adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan berkata,"Ia sangat cantik dan menawan."·
SAYANG adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan melihatnya dari hatimu dan bukan matamu· 
CINTA adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan berkata,"Buatku dia adalah anugerah terindah yang pernahTuhan berikan padaku.."·

Pada saat orang yang kau SUKA menyakitimu, maka kau akan marah dan tak mau lagi bicara padanya·
Pada saat orang yang kau SAYANG menyakitimu, engkau akan menangis untuknya·
Pada saat orang yang kau CINTAI menyakitimu, kau akanberkata,"Tak apa dia hanya tak tahu apa yang dia lakukan."·

Pada saat kau SUKA padanya, kau akan MEMAKSANYA untukmenyukaimu·
Pada saat kau SAYANG padanya, kau akan MEMBIARKANNYA MEMILIH·
Pada saat kau CINTA padanya, kau akan selalu MENANTINYA dengan setia dan tulus...·

SUKA adalah kau akan menemaninya bila itu menguntungkan·
SAYANG adalah kau akan menemaninya di saat dia membutuhkan·
CINTA adalah kau akan menemaninya di saat bagaimanapun keadaannya·

SUKA adalah hal yang menuntut·
SAYANG adalah hal memberi dan menerima·
CINTA adalah hal yang memberi dengan rela

Thursday, October 12, 2006

5th Months Anniversary

Last Tuesday was our 5th months anniversary, honestly on that day itself I wanted to write something but I felt that I have no exciting news to write hehe...
well, I guess today is the right time for me to write my reflection.
After five months, sometimes we took granted for what God has given to us which is love and relationship. Sometimes, we just make us this relationship for our own pleasure and disregard God's commandment.

Yesterday, when I went to prayer meeting at KKIHS, there's one lady shared her feeling about her sister who is pretty, good and charmed lady but has no boyfriend yet eventhough her age is going to 30 and her younger brother will be getting married soon next year.
She tried many right ways to find a boyfriend for her, and so did her friends. Many guys have been introduced to her sister but none resulted something even only friends...
She felt hopeless and discouraged...

Well, from her sharing, I feel very blessed since I can find him and I can feel what she feels since I have been through so much sufferings but one thing that I believe is God has beautiful plan for her. Perhaps she's not mature enough mentally to receive the gift eventhough the physically she is. And perhaps God also wants to shape her to be a patient and kind lady and good wife.
He knows better what everyone's needs.

Besides, I realize that many of my friends also desperate for life partners. They thought there's something wrong about them so they tried to cover up their weaknesses and appear perfectly in public. I don't judge or blame them, because I have been in that stage too before.
Thanks God, He shaped me well more than what I understand....

Now, after He gave me the gift, supposedly we keep it well enough for His glory. However, as an ordinary human, we forgot that and we do in our own way...
Well, in this opportunity, I just want to give thanks for His patience and kindness and beg His mercy to us if we have done something that unpleased Him.

Let your Holy Spirit which the owner of real love always guide, remind and protect us from all evil and anxiety...
Thank you Lord....

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

T-A-H-A-N

There's a good sharing from one of emails.

Mengutip kata-kata Romo : "..didalam pernikahan (mungkin bisa dipakaidalam tiap hubungan antar manusia juga kali ya..) ada 1 (satu) katayang bisa membuat pernikahan (atau hubungan) itu langgeng. Kata itu adalah TAHAN.

Melihat gejala masa kini yang semakin sering terjadi,banyak pernikahan yang berakhir dengan perceraian, itu karena merekatidak bisa TAHAN."Lebih lanjut…"..
Kata TAHAN itu ada kepanjangannya :-

"T" untuk kata TERBUKA
enggak ada tuh kamusnya kalau suami bisa berkata (bahkan berpikir)begini ke istrinya, " Mama boleh tau hal yang ini, tapi tidak untukhal yang satu itu", atau istri berkata (bahkan berpikir) begini kesuaminya, "Papa boleh tau hal yang ini, tapi tidak untuk hal yang satu itu", demikian juga seorang anak tidak boleh berkata(bahkan berpikir)seperti itu ke orang tuanya.
Kalau ada salah satu yang sudah menyimpan rahasia, itulah bibit dari kekacauan.-

"A" untuk kata APA ADANYA
Tidak ada yang sempurna di dunia ini, jadi, terima apa adanya pasangankita (atau teman kita). Tidak boleh membandingkan, karena sudah pasti, rumput disebelah selalu kelihatan lebih hijau kaaannnn…. Kalau membandingkan terus, hasilnya Cuma capek sendiri dan gak akan ada habisnya, karena selalu akan ada yang lebih baik, lebih bagus, lebihsukses, lebih kaya, lebih cantik, lebih ganteng, lebih muda, danlebih-lebih yang lainnya.
Kuncinya : Me-syukuri apa yang sudah Tuhan berikan ke kita, karenapasti membawa berkat buat kita-

"H" untuk kata (MENG)HARGAI
Kalau kita mau dihargai, tentu saja kita harus mau menghargai orang lain. Diberikan contoh oleh Romo :· saat istri sudah capek-capek mengurus rumah, memasak untuk keluarga (walau kebanyakan garam, jadi asiiiin…) suami yang dengan alasan banyak masalah dan pikiran dikantor meluapkan emosinya dirumah…kebayang dong bagaimana sedih hati sang istri…? Jadi suami harus bisa menghargai istri..· Saat suami datang capek-capek dari bekerja lembur, istri sebisa mungkin menyambut dengan senyuman, jangan dengan kata-kata, "Kerja sampe malem begini juga gak ada duitnya !" Saat anak dengan bahagianya memamerkan hasil karya gambarnya(walau gambarnya tidak berbentuk..), luangkan waktu sedikit untukmemuji karyanya, jangan langsung dirobek/ dicela (kembali, biasanyadilakukan para ortu karena sang orang tua beralasan kebanyakan bebanpikiran diluar rumah).-

"A" untuk kata AMPUNI
Kita harus bisa FORGIVE dan terus FORGET atas kesalahan yang dilakukanpasangan (ditegaskan kembali oleh Romo, tidak ada orang yangsempurna…kita pun tidak sempurna…). Jangan FORGIVEN but not FORGOTTEN-

"N" untuk kata NASEHAT
Harus bisa saling dukung dalam memberikan nasihat didalam kehidupan

Monday, October 02, 2006

As since we go honeymoon....


















































































As since we go honeymoon around the world hehe...
We went to Paris, Italia, Egyp, South America, India and China wow.....so nice right hehe..
with almost no cost, no luggage, nothing only bring ourselves, our happiness, joy, and love
Life is so good...

Well we are still "baby" in our relationship and almost 5 months next Tuesday..
However, the more we open ourselves, being honest with each other the more we understand each other about our strengths and weaknesses.

For almost 5 months, we have gone through so many things together from happiness, sadness, health, sickness, jobless, Church service, pleasure and leisure...
Sometimes there's misunderstanding between us but we come back to the Creator of Love...and we realize we can't expect anything from each other because it's impossible to ask our partner to fulfill our true happiness. Only the Owner and the Creator of Love does...

Well, the instrument of Real Love is being honest about ourselves and love God first so we are able to love each other without expect anything in return....

Friday, September 01, 2006

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Two Hands One Heart

Today, I have been reminded by one of the book authors and also my mentor, Greg Baer.
He introduced me 2 years ago about Real Love. When I was single, I was full and contented with real love therefore I lived in fullness, I received and felt God's love always with me day by day, I never felt so lonely. Years have passed and now God has given me new lesson in relationship.

Yes, I am in relationship now. Like other children, when they have been given new things, they feel excited and want to do everything they want and sometimes they ignore the guidelines and the rules, this is the same case with us.
When we are first in relationship, everything is so exciting. A partner whom we are longing for has come in our life. We do many things to please our partner and sometimes we ignore the rules. However, after we are looking back from the first we were dating until now, there have been good improvement. Though I can tell honestly it's still far from perfect.

We learn now how to control ourself, our ego, our passion, our expectation. Sometimes, we failed but after we realized it, we stood up and move on.
I can tell that I and my partner are two different person. Our character sometimes opposite each other. The good thing is we can compliment each other.
And after all, the bottom line is we believe in one God, we love and put our God first above each other. We realize that we are human with all limitations and we can't satisfy each other's needs totally eventhough we have done our best. Only God can satisfy our souls and our needs.

Besides, honesty is another good instrument for unconditional love.
Sometimes being honest can hurt others but it's much more better than never being honest.
Loving and forgiving can come from being honest.
So far, we are in good stage, yes there are times we are conflicting but after all we realize that we are only human with many weaknesses and limitations and we can't expect our partner to be what we want.

Today, Greg Baer reminds me about REAL LOVE, how we love our partner without any expectation and care about his happiness instead of us.
Thank you Lord, You are the creator of our relationship. Thank you for reminding us about Real Love.....Thank you for all the lessons we have been through....Thank you for Your forgiving and Mercy when we failed to behave like Your children....

Sunday, August 13, 2006

KASIH SEJATI


Kau telah memberi terlebih dari yang kusadari
karna ku melihat apa di depan mata
namun Engkau sanggup melihat jauh ke dalam hati
Kau mengajarku satu yang tulus tak kupahami
bahwa yang terbaik di dalam dunia ini
telah sejak lama kumiliki

Kasih yang sejati lahir dari relung hati
yang tiada ingin memiliki namun selalu membagi
Kasih yang sejati tumbuh dari dasar jiwa
yang tiada selalu meminta namun selalu percaya

Saturday, August 12, 2006

3 Months Anniversary

Last Thursday is our 3 months anniversary. Well, it's still very young for our relationship, however we have gone so many things for past 3 months from our working life, personal matters etc.
We are still in adjusting and adapting process to understand and know each other better.
Three months is still early to know each other truly who we are not to mention there's always difference between our thinking and opinion. After all, the bottom line is though we are different, we try to complement each other. Opennes, honesty are the key aspects for every relationship.

There are times when we fall into temptation, but we stand up again to walk and move on.
There are times when each of us stay alone and we realize that there's something missing in our life.
There are times when we can't stand alone and try to find other things to fill our emptyness and affection, but we realize and admit that it's not the correct way.
There are times when we are in different point of view and we prefer to reflect back our thinking and try to understand what other's point of view.
There are times when we are doubt whether this relationship is meant to be for each other.

After all, the moral of the story is we are still in the process of learning and adjusting.
We don't know what our future will be, what we can say now is we just walk by faith and love each other.
Oh ya, I was reminded by one beautiful song " Kasih Sejati "

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Two of Us


Sunday, July 02, 2006

Part of My Life















































This pictures were taken on June 24th at Rendezvous Hotel during my friend's wedding.

Today, he's going back Indonesia for 12 days.
It is the first time, I will be  a part with him. Honestly, it was hard for me.
I feel something missing in my life. The bright side is I know that he has become a part of my life and his presence is so precious for me.
We often meet in our daily life, I took granted of that.
Now, I feel that his courage, his care, his support and his smile are really meant to me.

Well, I hope you are happy there with your lovely family surrounding you.
I believe you will be a stronger person with more energy and strength when you come back here to face the reality.
I am sorry if I put the pressures to you, it doesn't mean that I have high expectation to you. I just want make you a better and stronger person than before. Perharps I always compare it with my life that might be different from you.
However, I understand now that I have no power to shape you, I just give you up to God's hand. I let Him teach and shape you, because He knows better for your needs and situation than me.

My part is only to accompany you to journey this life together, pray and support you the best I can. It perharps only 10%, the rest is God's hand that surround you.
Take care and God bless you and your family.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

One Month Anniversary

Like a baby, 10th June is our one month anniversary.
It's only one month but we feel that it's a long journey.
So far we have no conflict between us, we can understand and support each other.
However we have external problems. For Davin, he has a problem in his working place.
I don't know what God's plan for him, I believe that whatever he has experienced, it will teach him something.
Honestly, I can't do anything to help him, only God can help him. I am just beside him, cry together with him and accompany him. This proves that I can't replace God's position in his life.
He must look up God.

On the other hand, I have a slight problem in my working place too but it's already settled and another problem in my house. The same thing, he can't help me out. He's just be there, listen me, and comfort me and help me to see the positive side. That's more than enough.
And the same thing, only God can handle this problem and he can't replace God's position in my life.

I don't know whether this is a fact or just my feeling.
yeahh I feel that many people are jealous with us. This teaches me two things.
One, I give thanks to God because of the hardship and waiting process I have been through has been paid off and God gives me the one I have been waiting.
Secondly, it gives me a reflection that I must behave the same like before when I was a single.
I don't want people get a wrong interpretation.

From the first place, we have the same vision and purpose that this relationship is meant for others. Well, it's only one month and it's still early to accomplish the mission.
We need adjustments and so do people. However, we believe that this is God's plan and our purpose is according to His will, He will help us and strengthen us.

Thank you Lord for giving us the wonderful love and experience.
Please guide and guard always our heart, mind and body so we can offer it to You in the end.
Let Your love surround us every seconds in our life.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

THE KITE AND THE STRING

I copy this parable from the book "Boy meets Girl"

When we guide romance with wisdom, we have skillful romance - romance that is directed by what is true about God and about the world He has made.

Relationship between wisdom and romance is like the one between a string and a kite.
Romantic love is the kite that catches the wind and tenaciously heads for the sky.
Wisdom is the string that tugs downward holding it back.
The tension is real but healthy.

I suppose there are times when a kite feels tied down by the string.
"If this bothersome string would just let go of me, I could fly really high. " the kite might think.
But that isn't true. Without the string holding it in the face of the wind, the kite would quickly come crashing to the ground.

Romance without wisdom will soon take a nosedive. It becomes selfish, indulgent and even idolatrous.
It's not enough to simply have romantic feelings. Long lasting romance needs practical, commonsense wisdom that knows when to let the wind of feelings carry us higher and when to pull back.

Simply Us

Chapter 1, LEARN FROM THE MISTAKES AND MOVE FORWARD

We realized that we have been in a fast track. The reasons are many.
It can be the excitement for us to experience relationship for the first time, or our prayer life is not as strong as before, or we express our affection overly to each other.

Though it's not superb big mistakes, we have bad impacts in our life.
We are feeling guilty toward each other and God, we don't spare time to our close friends.
Well, it is the learning process especially for brand new couple.
It has many trials and errors how to make the relationship is working according to what it should be.

Anyway, On top of that, I am giving thanks to God.
He has given me this beautiful gift...a lovely relationship...that I am dreaming of when I was in the waiting process.
And also He has brought a gentleman who has a kind and warmed heart and heart that always hungry and thirst to God.
He respects and treats me as a princess. It's really an honour for me.

Well, I also give thanks to God since He intervenes this relationship. He knows that we are new and have no experience at all. He let us make mistakes but give us an united heart and Holy Spirit to guide and remind us. Even, He remind us through our friends and community and our parents.

We have opened and confessed to each other and we have made new steps for our goodness sake.
We will behave like best friend, we will give each other a space to grow and we will spend a time to pray together every week to strengthen our prayer life.
I believe with this new journey, we will get many clashes since our expectation may be different from one another.
But it will shape our character how to understand and put no expectation towards each other and try to be independent yet dependent.

Thanks God...for first lesson given to us.

A man's wisdom gives him patience (Proverbs 19 : 11)
Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires (Song of Song 8:4)

Sunday, May 28, 2006

REFLECTION

It has been less than 3 weeks of our journey. However, sometimes I feel that our journey is like more than 3 years.
Honestly, until now I don't understand what God's plan for us with this relationship. Well, I believe that this relationship is God's gift and He wants us to give Glory to Him.

Indeed, I feel that it doesn't bring me closer to God. I don't know whether this is what supposed to be in the first time.
Yes, this is my first experience in relationship so I need to figure it out what things need to be done and not to be done to please Him.

We have an ideal relationship in our mind, but the reality is different from the ideal one. I am just wondering what I am supposed to do...
I read the book " Boy meets Girl " by Joshua Harris.
The book is good, he shares the guideline of courtship and a lot of success stories from the book.
Sometimes I am just wondering how they struggle in the first time when they were in relationship. I believe they also struggled how to control themselves to be pure in mind, soul, body and sexual and how they can sacrifice themselves for the happiness of others.

One thing I give thanks to God eventhough I don't understand what His plan for us now is the message Love is not blind, He still gives me wisdom to think, learn what is right and what is wrong and how to move on.
Holy Spirit still gives me courage and reminder for us.
Thank you Lord and Holy Spirit. We believe in Your guidance.

Let Your wisdom, love, joy and peace surround us and fill our cup with those so we can be obedience and faithfull to You and our commitment.
Let Your glory reflected in us

Friday, May 19, 2006

Keeper of The Stars

I still remember how I accidentally found this song and somehow it made me thinking further if I someday could sing this song, with the true facts for sure... Now, this lovely song is no longer merely a song for me as I know that every single line of it was representing what I feel in the deepest of my heart...

~ Davin ~


Keeper of The Stars (by: Tracy Byrd)

It was no accident... me finding you...
Someone had a hand in it... long before we ever knew...
Now I just can't believe... you're in my life...
Heaven's smiling down on me... as I look at you tonight...

Soft moonlight on your face... oh, how you shine...
It takes my breath away... just to look into your eyes...
I know that I don't deserve... a treasure like you...
There really are no words... to show my gratitude...

I tip my hat... to the keeper of the stars...
He sure knew what he was doing... when He joined these two hearts...
I hold everything... when I hold you in my arms...
And I've got all I'll ever need... thanks to the keeper of the stars...


Through this song, I was reminded one more time for all the hopes and wishes that I have left far far away in my past, as I thought it was only a dream in this real world, is actually brought back into my life... I have forgotten how long it was the last time I sing this song for I thought it will never be real... Thanks God for one of the sweetest gift in my life... when I gave it up, You never give up on me!

Thursday, May 18, 2006

When God writes our love story

From the title When God writes my love story, I want to change it to When God writes our love story...

When we just started our relationship, I was a bit nervous and afraid..if I was wrong about him and if he was indifference with other guys who like to exploit girls for their enjoyment.
But from the process, I found out that he's different from others...
He respects me as a woman and God's gift and he never wants to let me down.
I am really touched...and my faith increases that he's the one God brings for me.

I hope in this journey...we open to each other and to be honest and love each other unconditionally.
The important thing is putting God's love in the centre of our relationship.
Besides, I just have a simple prayer request everyday that we are able to keep our purity of our mind, heart and body as a living sacrifice to God until the time comes when He unites and blesses us forever...
And also we will be faithfull and perseverance in any circumstances, in good and bad times, in sickness and health.
Thanks God for this beautiful gift which I was waiting patiently for 12 years.

" With real love nothing else matters, without it nothing is enough "

The beginning of new mission - May 10th



















Finally... I found someone...
He's a simple person whom God has prepared for some years. He is my answered prayer for some years. I never expect that he's the one God has chosen for me...
When I remembered and looked back my love story, I amaze how God has written beautiful love story for me.

Starting from broken heart, hopeless, and traumatic, God shaped my life. This was a hardship and struggling to trust in God's plan. Until finally, He revealed the truth about Unconditional love. Well, that's not the end but it's the beginning. He allowed me to love someone who really beyond my expectation. He asked me to love him unconditionally regardless whether he will be mine or not.
And yes, it's really struggling especially when he's with another woman in front of me.
I felt like carrying the cross and indeed I tried to pray for her. But God never left me alone, He always comforted and encouraged me until the time has come.

Along the way, I have faith that God has provided something beautiful and something good will happen soon.
Yes, it's true....when the time has come...
He brought me to the gentleman who may not be noticed by anybody...
What amazed me was we had the same vision and purpose for our life....
Oh ya another thing is God has revealed the truth how to be a white lily among the torns when I read Authentic Beauty book.

Thanks God...on May 10th was the time we started our relationship.
This was beginning for His mission to use our relationship for His glory and blessing for people surround us....

Friday, May 05, 2006

FAITHFULLY




Tonight I saw a shooting star
Made me wonder where you are
For years I have been dreaming of you
And I wonder if you're thinking of me, too.

In this world of cheap romance
And love that only fades after the dance
They say that I'm a fool to wait for something more
How can I really love someone I've never seen before?

But I have longed for true love everyday that I have lived,
and I know real love is all about learning how to give
So I pray that God will bring you to me,
And I pray you'll find me waiting faithfully

Faithfully, I am yours
From now until forever
Faithfully, I will write
Write you a love song with my life
'Cause this kind of love's worth waiting for
No matter how long it takes
I am yours faithfully

Tonight I saw two lovers kiss
Reminded me of my own loneliness
They say that I'm a fool to keep on praying for you
How can I give up pleasure for a dream that won't come true?

But I will keep believing that God has still has a plan
And though I cannot see you now, I know that He can
And someday I will give you all of me
Until I find you, I'll be waiting faithfully

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

The Wife of Noble Character

This is the verse from Proverbs 31. This is a guideline to be a noble bride on earth and in heaven

10 A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

My prayer for my life partner

After I know God and have been renewed, I change my mindset about my life partner.
Last time, I always want a life partner like handsome, rich, smart, charming...
But after knowing God, I prefer someone who also love God more than anything in this world.
The one who can survive without me because he believes that only God can satisfy his soul.
The one who accepts me whatever I am...including my strengths and weaknesses
The one who respects me as a woman and support me to be closer to God more and more.
On other hand, I also do the same thing....

I always pray for him eventhough I don't know who he is, where he is, what he is...
I let God shape him as He does for me so when the process finishes and God bring us together...we can say...how great His work
And we always put God's love as a centre of our relationship. We will keep this love as pure as the original and we share it to others.

I believe this is what God wants to....to share God's love and touch the heart of people

My True Prince

Who is my true prince?
Yupp, he is Jesus. He is my true prince who can satisfy my soul and love me unconditionally.
Even, He has lied down and sacrificed His life for me. This is the sacred sacrifice and privelege for me.
However, Often I never appreciate that. I take for granted and just walk off with "someone" else. Yupp, I know it really dissapoints Him.
His love is unconditionally and endless and perfect. He always waits for me and forgives me whenever I am doing wrong or making him upset.

He is my true love and nobody can replace Him in my heart.
I give my mind, my soul, my body to Him and a living sacrifice and I try my best to keep them Holy until the day He picks me up and asks me to come to His kingdom.
Well, It's really beautiful relationship that can't buy with money or exchange with anything else on earth.
I really give thanks for this love

Friday, April 21, 2006

WELCOME

This blog is for my love story.
Eventhough until now I don't know what to write...I just prepare it.
Because I believe something good will happen soon.
I believe that God has answered my prayer everyday and I let Him write my love story.
I just follow the flow and the screnario He has written for me.

Let the day come when God bring me to the one I will devote for the rest of my life